Another whine: Jungle Boy is at it again
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gets loaded then comes knocking on my door asking me to come "talk to him" AKA feel sorry for him. Sorry no can do. Can't feel sorry for him. I mean like I've been trying to help him but he won't let me and he's a grown man I can't force him to do anything, no one can force anything on him. As much as he needs help that part is still HIS responsibility. And like also other people have tried to help him like people from his AA club etc, but he keeps rejecting everything. And he keeps asking me to "help him" but apparently he doesn't really want any help just pity, and I don't do that. I've had it with his circle of "I'm so miserable, I got a drink because I'm miserable, now it's making me even more miserable", and then it's all on me and I'm like totally drained and exhausted I can't do this anymore. Wanna stop feeling miserable? Break the circle for crying out loud, I mean it's not like there's any forces keeping this circle going but his own self. I'll help but you gotta frelling let me!!
And then he keeps going like "nobody loves me, nobody's gonna help me" etc, and I told him very firmly that people DO wanna help him but he keeps shutting them out, and then he calls his sponsors or other people from his AA meeting and yells at them and cusses them out when they say the very same stuff I keep telling him, that he needs help etc I mean like they just wanna help and THAT'S the way he treats them after repeatedly asking for help?? So like what are you whining about nobody liking you. That's NO way to get either friends or sympathy. Sorry it just ain't.
And like I've tried everything I could to help him, but then every time he comes up with stupid excuses that make absolutely no sense, like for example he goes like "I don't wanna go to a rehab place because I don't wanna be a burden on anyone, they'd probably tell me to get lost" etc etc, like dude that's their job to help people like you, you're supposed to go there in order to STOP being a burden. And like HELLO so it's better to be a burden on me??
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And then when I called a rehab place for him and they told me to bring him over the next morning. Like even though I was sick and had to get up really early on a very cold day to get him there in buses. But I'd still do it because I wanna help. But like then when I talked to him he was like "I need help, I should go to rehab please help me" etc as usual, then I told him about the place I called and that I could go with him the next day, then he goes like "no it's too early I don't wanna wake up too early", so I was like "okay then we can take a cab" then he starts thinking and goes like "uhhh... but I don't know that place, they probably just wanna take my money and not do anything". Like dude if you don't know the place how do you know they're just after your money?? He only knows the "Promises" rehab place because that's where all the celebs go. But there's plenty others he's never heard of which provide the same help and treatments for people other than Lindsay Lohan and Britney Spears.
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So THEN since he's locked on Promises he asks me to talk to Promises for him, that it's the only place he'd agree to go. Like because he's only used to the most upscale stuff. So I say okay, I mean like if he wanna spend $50,000 that's his own choice he can afford it, just go get help already. So I called them and they said that they first have to schedule a phone interview with him and that he has to call them himself to do that. I told him. He didn't call. Instead he went and got loaded. Then came crying to me as usual.
And like he keeps going about how he wants help, and how people from AA told him about free programs they know, but he doesn't DO anything. Then he keeps coming to me telling me how nobody loves him and he wanna jump out the window etc to try to make me feel sorry for him.
I think I was a little to harsh with him today. But seriously this is stressing me out and I can't do this anymore. I told him I'm his friend but nothing he's gonna do or say can make me feel sorry for him because he's the one doing it to himself, like he's got choices all over but he keeps making the wrong ones and rejects help, and no one can force him in the right direction because he's not a child and it's no one's job to take care of him. I think he actually got offended when I said I didn't feel sorry for him.
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And that I don't want him to talk about killing himself anymore because I'm really sick of hearing about it, I don't need the extra stress and basically dumping this "responsibility" on me especially since he only talks like that for attention and pity. And he keeps crying like "what am I supposed to do", and I'm like "you know exactly what you're supposed to do, GET HELP" then he keeps going as if I didn't already answer his question. And when he started with the "I wanna jump out the window" again I just said that's it NOW I'm closing the door, then he goes like no wait please no I won't do it etc etc. Like I already told him trying to make me feel sorry for him will neither help him nor get him the pity and sympathy he wants.
Well yeah I was kinda harsh on him today. I feel kinda bad because he's my friend and you know what they say about "a friend in need", thing is he's not really being a friend in "need", he's being a friend in "want". I'd happily help him with what he NEEDS, but he just won't let me and I can't force him, if he won't do his part of the responsibility it's out of my hands. And also all the frelling stress and his selfish behavior hurt me. I passed out last week for crying out loud. And I'm sure it wasn't solely the fault of the UTI I had that before, and I wasn't even in any kinda pain or anything (duh if it hurt or burn or whatever I'd go see a doctor). I passed out because in addition to being sick and kinda hungry (though it's not the first time I didn't eat much, there's been times I didn't eat ANYTHING for like a couple days and nothing happened) I was also stressed out and exhausted and sleep deprived because he woke me up every night. And I ended up with a needle in my arm. And NO ONE makes me get a needle and gets away with it.
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