TSara wrote:Hey E,
I was just thinking about this the other day......so I thought I'd ask.
Was it the corps you didn't like? I mean would you be open to possibly giving one of the other services OCS a chance?
Just wondering.
I don't think so, because it was primarily the idea setting in of everything else taking a back seat. Someone might say, 'well yeah that's inherent to the military, you should have realized that before', but you can't 'realize that' before you live it. You just simply can't, it's not possible. Nobody who's not in the military can possibly understand how that works.
Let me put it this way - the main thing was that I wouldn't want to have to put my family second in any situation, and giving your life for 4-8 yrs to the military is doing that. It's saying you're willing to do that. Now, before, I was willing to push through that because I had so much motivation. I lost that motivation when 1. I realized I didn't really dig 'the officer' idea as much, and 2. I just wasn't motivated by the culture I was in. So, hypothetically, once I've set myself up for the career field I want and I'm out of graduate school, 'Is it possible I'd re-entertain the idea of military service, most likely as an enlisted reservist?' Possibly. It's in the realm of possibilities, but unlikely. I don't think I should ever have entered the officer program in the first place, because never could I wrap my hands around why I'd want to be an officer and not just an enlistedman. Honestly the only thing better I see about being an officer right now is the pay and the plush treatment. 'Job'-wise, I don't think I'd ever want to be an officer.